I have had this blog for a LONG time now, it has seen MANY renovations and restarts over that time, and as of late I had all but given up on using this source as a resource to express myself and what I am going to go through. That all changed in a moment. Here's how.
The story actually starts about 7 years ago, just before I graduated high school. I met someone who made me feel like there were just genuinely awesome people in the world (other than my perfect boyfriend/eventual husband), and it was what I would consider friendship at introduction. This person is my friend, Kady Sanchez. I barely knew her and already felt like I had met one of the best people I'd ever meet in my life. I found myself thinking that she and I had SO much in common, but what I soon realized was that I found in her the things I only wished I could see in myself. We have maintained a long distance type friendship over the past 7 years and she even drove across the state to come to my and my husband's wedding! I look at Kady as a role model (even if we are the same age),a source of inspiration to be a better me, and she has just recently inspired me again.
This is where my blog change idea comes in. Kady just started a new blog that totally threw me for a loop and told me it's time to get up off of my butt and get going. Kady's blog, "Here Today & Gone Tomorrow", is about her personal journey to lose weight and build up her self love, esteem, and confidence. I read her first entry and found myself in tears. I realized that she and I have something huge in common, something that I never thought she would ever have a problem with at all. We both don't really like ourselves. She calls her dislike "self-loathing," and I know exactly what she means. I look at her and think, how could she be feeling what I feel every day? How could this person who brings such joy to my life, when all I did was read her facebook status for the day, possibly feel a small amount of the negativity towards herself that I feel every minute? Then for me to continue reading her posts and see that not only do we have the dislike for ourselves in common, but we also have the same downfalls when it comes to change, it tells me one thing. If Kady, being as awesome as she is from what I see, can feel on the inside how I feel about myself and find a way to bring herself to change it all, so can I.
So there it is. The reason for what will be a sudden influx of activity on this old blog. I hope Kady doesn't mind me using part of her story, (Kady if you read this and don't like it, please tell me, I will take it down yesterday.), and her blog idea as motivation to change myself. I read her entries and find myself inspired, motivated, and empowered.
If me reading her blog helps me change, then maybe if someone reads my blog they will be inspired too. So here goes nothing and everything all at once. I know it will be hard. I know I will want to quit. I know that I will probably have times where I pretend not to care, but I will not back down this time. I will be accountable now, because I know that out there there is someone who I think is absolutely awesome going through the same struggles as me.
Everyone should read Kady's blog:
http://kadyisleaving.blogspot.com/2012/02/introduction.html
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