WELL, now you can see that there is work to be done!!!
Being that today is my day off, I have been cleaning. I like to turn on a show on netflix while I clean to keep me company and today I discovered the show Heavy. I'm a typical overweight person in that watching shows like Heavy and Biggest Loser, etc. motivates me to do something about my weight issues, but I am also the kind of person who finds myself in denial about just how obese I am. I look at the people on those shows and think, "Hey, he weighs 400+lbs., she weighs 350+lbs., I'm not THAT bad off," but today I was given a quick slap in the face. One of the women on the episode of Heavy that I was listening to weighed 254.6lbs. as her STARTING weight! Mind you all that I STARTED at 260lbs. and weighed 257.6lbs. last week! Adding another jab was the fact that she is 26 years old! I turn 26 in 5 days! The final straw was when I saw that she was borderline diabetic upon entering her program and didn't even know it. It was like the weight loss "gods" were yelling at me, "HELLO Stacey! Wake UP!"
Now, I know that the weight the people lose on those shows is lost in an extreme and controlled environment, one where people prepare your food for you and there is almost always some over excited yelling trainer running around behind you for hours a day screaming questions like, "Do you want to die!?" I know that if I were to be put in that situation, I would probably lose weight just as quickly as those people, because I respond well to boundaries, but I'm not looking for a place to go (for lack of a better term) hide while I shed the lbs., I'm looking for a healthy life! So, I know that looking at the weight these people lose and in the time they do it in is just a bit unrealistic for me, but I DO see motivation in their accomplishments. The woman I had so much in common with did go on to lose 88lbs. in six months. This also came as a slap, for I have been blogging for six months and haven't even lost 10lbs! To be continued...
This past week I have been given the great honor of being asked to be the Matron of Honor for my best friend's wedding. I'm SO excited! I look back at my own wedding pictures and see her standing next to me as my Maid of Honor and want her day to be just as great as mine was! But, there's something else I see in those pictures. I see myself in a size 24 wedding dress. Talk about embarrassing. I don't want to be in a size 24 bridesmaid's dress for her wedding. I want to look great, not just for her, but for myself. I want to see pictures of myself at her wedding and not wish that I had not been in them. Did I mention that her wedding is in SIX months? Starting to see a correlation here?
I know that I can't lose 88lbs. in six months like the woman from the show, I would be afraid to, I would be afraid it was too fast and that I would just gain it all back. Having said that, if I were to lose 88lbs. before my friend's wedding, I'd be thrilled. However, I've decided to set a different goal, a seemingly more reachable goal for myself. I am going to lose 60lbs. by March 23, 2013. I've already reformulated my MyFitnessPal.com settings to include 4 days a week of 30min. or more of exercise. If I burn 1,120 calories a week in exercise and stay below 1,590cal/day in food intake (which has gone down from 1,630cal/day due to having lost weight), and drink my 64oz. of water/day, I will lose 2lbs./week. While it's still 28 weeks away, and that would be only 56lbs. lost, I WILL make the other four happen along the way as well, and I will weigh 195.1lbs. I KNOW I can do it. I want to look great and have that as a milestone on the road to losing to my goal of 155lbs.
So, now for the actual weight update. I have lost 2.5lbs. since my last entry! I now weigh 255.1lbs! This is a happy moment because I now know, I have exactly 100lbs. to lose to reach my goal, and while that's HUGE, from now on if any weight is lost, I will have less than 100lbs. to go, and that is fun to say.
My mission for the day is to go to the gym and learn to use the elliptical in a way that doesn't make me feel like I'm turning my brain into a freshly shaken cocktail. I got a new water bottle in a fun purple color to take with me, and I've already drank three cups of water because it's just so much fun to use. Sometimes having tools to make the unfun stuff fun really does help! ;) So, until next week, here's the song that will be running through my head as I attempt my elliptical feat (if you're offended by men in speedos, do not watch, just listen, lol). Also, keep it coming with the comments and encouragement, it super duper helps if I know people care! ☆☆☆☆☆
P.S.- 210,000 Calories is the number of calories I will have to use up to lose 60lbs. ;)
